Sleep

I used to not be able to sleep without you here in bed with me.
I would wait up for you to come home.
I always worried about you...
     If you were okay.
          If you were safe.
               If you were coming home.
I couldn't sleep.
If only I could sleep.

I always tried to wait for you but the hours would tick by.
I would fall asleep but never for long.
I'd wake, stretch my arm to reach for you,
     Check your side of the bed.
          Check the time.
               Check my phone.
I couldn't sleep.
If only I could sleep.

I never could really sleep without you here in bed with me.
But I've learned how to live...
     With an empty bed,
          And an empty house.
               And empty arms.

Now I don't have to worry about where you are.
I don't have to worry if you're safe.
I don't have to wait up or worry if you're coming home.
I know you're not.

I can sleep peacefully because I know...
     You are already home.
          And you're safe.
               And you're in good hands.

I can sleep.
Now if only I could sleep.