I just finished a roller coaster blog about our journey through infertility (if you haven't read it, its the one before this and it's long...sorry). I want to keep writing because I feel like a bad Christian for challenging God to prove himself. Who am I??? I go back and forth between asking for it, praying for it, believing it, and doubting it at the same time. I feel like a bad Christian because of my doubts and fears. I feel like maybe it's been my fault all along, the reason I can't conceive, because I doubted God's power to make it happen despite all odds. So then I go and challenge Him, as if I'm somebody significant enough to do such a thing! What a lack of humility :( I don't know what to do our how to act so I apologize in advance Lord, and friends.
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